We never really grow up

Today I realized that we never really grow up. I will always be a child in some form or fashion. I still want all of the comforts of home. How silly is that? I am grown with children of my own, but still want to crawl onto my daddy's lap or be circled in a hug by my mom when I cry.

Life is full of challenge and change. We grow up because we are supposed to, not because we want to. Who really wants all of the responsibility of adulthood? I know there are perks to being older, but what would you do if you were given the opportunity to be a six year old kid for one more day?

I would take it. I would run through the field in the tall grass beside our house, I would eat PB&J and get it all over my face. I would drink from the water hose. I would ride bikes until the sun went down. I would chase after my older brother and hold my little brother's hand. I would visit my great-grandmother and great-grandfather and sing songs with them while we ate cookies and raisins. I would sing at the top of my lungs in the bathub, wear whatever clothes made since to me at the time, pick wild flowers for my mom, and play baseball with all of the kids in town unitl I couldn't anymore. I would leave all of the worring to someone else.

My mother never told me that one day I would look in my children's eyes and long to be as carefree as they are. She never said that I would lose some of the childlike qualities that bring goodness into the world.

Some of you may think that this post is selfish, but I know that what I need to do is to let the little girl in me shine. My children and the rest of the world will be a better place if I just eat PB&J and get it all over my face, run through the field holding my kids hands, ride bikes with my husband until the sun goes down, drink from the water hose, sing as loud as I can, wear whatever clothes make since to me, pick wildflowers with my daughter, and play baseball with my boys until I can't anymore. I will still worry, but I will worry about the things that really matter.